Project C 2009

I've just come back from a 4-day church youth camp at Highlands Christian Center on Cameron Highlands. It's been a long time since I've visited HCC, the last time being over 3 years ago during RBS. It sure brought back a lot of memories being there again.

Up on the hills where there is little distraction and much peace, I was expecting to receive much from God. Because sometimes, city life gets to you, and there are just too many things on your mind that you can't focus on listening to His small voice that's whispering into your ear.

Yes, I did receive much from God at camp. This has been the first time in my life that I have experienced God speak to me through another person. It was so real, and so assuring; and an experience that real compels me now to firmly decide to not ever turn from this God I have chosen to believe in. Because I believe that He is the only way, the truth, and the life.

As a Christian, I have often doubted the credibility of emotionally fueled spiritual experiences with God. As seen regularly at some bigger churches, it seems the pastor talks his way into making his audience break down in tears, even having some fall down on their knees in what seemed to me to be an exaggerated outward display of gratitude. I understood that many Christians enjoyed this spiritually 'high' experience, but when it was all over, their lives reverted to an all-time low. And I too thought that these displays of emotion was a turn-off for non-believers who witnessed it. Because it seemed that this experience was more like a holy drug that gave them temporary ecstasy.

But I have learned now that one need not hold back in the presence of God. Because it is a very personal experience, and just as how a parent soothes their crying child, so does our Father in heaven embrace us in his bosom when we cry out to Him.

Oh, this may all seem so preachy and boring. But I am writing all of this down because I never want to forget what God said to me during this camp. It has left a very profound impact on me. Having someone tell you that which is in your heart, that which you have never revealed to anybody; that can only be God at work.

So now, I will stop here and leave the details untold. Of course, other than these thoughts I did go on an interesting hike up Gunung Jasar (it rained halfway up). And some teahouse visiting in Tanah Rata. Will blog more with pictures soon. :)

And I will be still, and know You are God.